TIME FOR 4-CHAN I MEAN INTERNET.

lolololol now no one uses insanejournal!!! I'm putting this here because if you ever wanna access my old accounts or find some way to reach me that is not here... well now you have a list handy. ( ；-д-)ゞ

I'm alive... for real.

Promise to be updating more in the future since uh it seems like Recca likes ij more than eljay. :C

So I think... it's over. It's done with. I cried a lot of it out last night, though I'm sure it won't be the last time I get teary over it... but I'm feeling less and less guilt-ridden about it and more and more ready to be optimistic about the future. I was reminded this morning when Ashley texted me, that even friendships that have soured in the past can still end up turning into something wonderful again after all is said and done. It takes time. And maybe that's what she needs. If she comes around, awesome. If she doesn't, then that's too bad.

I'll get over it somehow; I always have.



P.S.

Thank you to all my friends who have offered support, understanding, and a shoulder to emo on. Heh and even if you don't know the whole story, just simply being there was enough. I love you all very much and treasure each and every one of you greatly. Let's keep our friendships for a long time ne? ♥

Hee hee! You have no idea how exciting it is to finally be in my last week of classes! So close to the finish, I can barely concentrate on anything else! I'll be going home on Thursday of this week and then that means more free time than ever before although I'll also be on the look out for a new job too since VS is a wanker and decided to let me go but never inform me!

Ah well, not letting that get me down! I'll see all you very soon! 您們有好天的! v(｀∀´v)

Sorry that this post is basically a little bitchfest... but honestly I'm sorry I can't be around all the time. And I'm pissed off that I'm always swamped with something or other to do constantly (even now I'm postponing studying for two quizzes I have in an hour and a half - not wise) but honestly what the fuck more can anyone want from me!?

I'm very busy lately. I have a life outside of the internet. I don't spend all fucking day on it just chatting it up with only a few select friends and purposely blowing everyone/everything else off... I mean come on what the hell!? My closest friends don't even hear from me that much and it's getting ridiculous!

College this year is hard.
Next year may be harder.

I'm a slow student... It takes time for me to pick up the pace and increase in productivity, but once I'm committed, I'm REALLY committed. I always work harder my last few years in school... can't explain why... it just feels like the most important thing to do.

So, sorry if it's really ruining everything but succeeding at these last couple stages of my pre-graduate school life are important. I need to focus and I need to get down to business if I'm ever going to get serious about having a real future and achieving all my own personal dreams.

I want to go graduate school at National in Lombard, Illinois.
I want to be a chiropractor in the next five years.
I want to be fluent in Mandarin Chinese.
I want to have my own home on Oahu, Hawaii.
I want to go back to Beijing in China.

I want to do many things, have accomplished many things but first I need to do those other undergrad things first. Please understand. My life is only just beginning... I still have so much more I need to get done in the time between now and my graduations... I'm not forgetful and I'm not neglectful. There is a very bold lined difference between not caring and not having enough time for everything. I wish more people could see this situation the way I do.

This is an update to tell you I'm alive, I live, but am extremely busy. I uh yeah don't really have too much time for the internet like I used to but it's to be expected I suppose when one is going to school for 18 hours, working on two jobs? and trying to graduate on time which at this campus seems nearly impossible for all my friends.

REGARDLESS! Yen is slowly chugging along and hopes to be more active in the coming months. Ahurr that also means procrastinating. (ｰωｰ;)

Wow, I never thought I'd admit to this... I. Am. Shallow. :C